Daddy's turn!!

Papa Jon’s letter to Jordan boy

Dear Jordan,
Exactly 365 days ago, I was standing between you and your mum, feeling utterly lost and confused. On one side, your mum was in a bad shape having endured almost 13 hours of labor, while on the other side, you lie on the baby warmer with a swollen head from the heavy vacuuming earlier. A mixed feeling consisting of uncertainty, excitement and responsibility engulfed me when I look at you and your mum. I, for once, knew that I have entered a new stage of our family life.

The very first time I held you in my arms, I felt empowered. Empowered to take care of you, empowered to be responsible for your well-being. I still remember carrying you in a little baby bassinet to the car and realising that everything I do from that moment onwards, will have an impact on our life.

It was really tiring during the first few months, getting used to the lack of sleep and waking up many times at night. However, your Daddy also realize how agile he can be, “ejecting” out of bed to carry you when you cry at night. Of course, it also comes with painful backaches the very next day. A lot of house chores to do as I would now be taking care of 2 babies instead of one. (Your mummy being the other one). When I accidentally let you fell off the bed, it was the first time I felt so guilty and helpless. The little bump on your forehead constantly reminds me to be careful with whatever I had to do.

There is another surprising change to our lives. You have brought about such a big change to your mummy. I have realised that her temper have improved and she has started showing me why mothers are always seen as the icon of parenthood. She has also come to understand the very reason why I am working hard, is the baby she had to ferry home alone.
I cannot express how much I appreciate your presence in my life as it has become more than just a feeling. It has evolved into an instinctive desire to be there when you guys need me around.

Time does fly though and before I know it, you are already crawling and running around. It brings me smiles and relief from my daily routines. It tells me why life is more than just work. Like you, I am also learning the ropes. While you are learning the basics of life, your daddy is studying how to strike a balance well and to be a good and dutiful father and husband. Teach me by simply being a good boy and forgive me when I make mistakes. Promise?

p.s. daddy is not fond of expressing his emotions in a letter. :P

PaPa Jon