Letter to jordan.Boy (from mummy)

Dearest jordan.Boy,

Time flies .. it's a year since you came into my life :)

When mummy first discover that I am carrying you, I was happy & excited, yet so lost. There was so much uncertainty. The first time I see you on the screen in the clinic, Dr Woo said that you were only a few mm & the size of a rice. My first thot was .. "wat .. few mm? dan wat do i need to do so dat u will grow into a heathy baby?"

The first time I really saw you was on 21 May @11pm sharp. You were all sticky than & when the midwife carries you to me, I did not give you the usual warmest hug dat TV always show. The fact is, I have never carry a newborn all my life & I am afraid that I might hurt you with my clumsy hand.

As I bring you home ... as I begin my life with you as part of it .. everything changes. From a 70hrs/ week sleep routine, it became half. Weekends are now much longer as I follow your routine to wake up at 7am. Everything I do is brand new to me .. Carrying you, bathing you, changing your diaper, trying to decipher your cries to see what you are really looking for. Altho' it sometimes tires me to learn so many new things in a single day, but seeing your little face makes little expression, seeing you yawns, seeing your super cute way of drink water from the syringe, or even just seeing you stare blankly at me, makes the day all worth it.

From a 'dunno wats happening' baby, you had now grown to be a playful & cheerful toddler. Altho' everybody says your dady started walking at 9.5mths, so its all in the genes, but I am still proud of you when you starting walking at 10mths. I am proud of your bravery to start making small wobberly steps at this age, and having no fear to fall. I am also proud of your ability to understand the world around you. Altho' all you say are 'ah' & papa', but I know dat you are fully aware of all the new & exciting things that are happening around you.

As for me, from a blur mummy, I am trying everyday to be a better mummy tomorrow. I used to wonder .. how it is Ah Ma can do all those things she did for me without complaint? Now with you baby, I know the answer. Bcoz of you, mummy had grown braver. I can now drive the car to pick you up, I can pick up the dirty stuffs from sink without feeling like vomitting. Bcoz of your smile every morning, my days become sunnier. Bcoz of your warm hug every nite, my dream becomes sweeter.

Thank you baby, for coming into my life. Happy 1st birthday to you, and my greatest wish is to have you grow up heatlthy & happy. Mummy promise, I will love you & take care of you forever .. and ever.

Luvs, mummy